Oh and this blog is NOT spoiler-free.
@marvel Flattery will get you nowhere! Probably. Maybe. *looks the other way*
Captain America Deleted Scene: Bucky at War
#hey ho lemme whisper at you a thing #bucky did not want to go to war #steve did #bucky realized that steve needed him at home more than the world needed him at war #but the world never sees things that way #so he was drafted #but because steve tried so hard time and again to enlist #he couldn’t tell that scrappy little punk he hadn’t joined up voluntarily because it would crush him #so he lied #and it’s one of those lies he tells steve #because he has to lie to protect him #and he goes overseas because running away isn’t an option because steve would never run with him and would never forgive him for running #even if he’d do it so that steve always had someone to look out for him #and from the minute he steps foot on the battlegrounds #he’s afraid #because steve wanted this and all he can think is how he’s not sure he can survive it #so how could that little pipsqueak who weighed 90lbs soaking wet survive over here #and the deeper he gets #the more he sees #the more he’s afraid he won’t make it home #and he never found someone to look after steve #and who’s going to take care of him now? #the cocky kid from brooklyn can kick a bully’s ass for picking on the little guy no problem #but how do you kick the ass of an unstoppable force? #the closer and closer he gets to the thick of things #the more he worries #because steve is going to be alone in the world #and he made a promise #he promised him ‘til the end of the line’ but their lines were supposed to end together #not like this #and when he’s captured with the 107th bucky’s first thought and last lucid thoughts are for steve #and he finds himself praying to a god he stopped believing in a long time ago and lost even more faith in when he got to the war #praying that if he’d done any good in his life that it be enough to ask one favour #that god send someone to look after steve when he’s gone #becuse he’s not going home and the punk needs someone to watch over him
At first I was like “oh some guy being a really awesome athlete” AND THEN I REALIZED WHAT I WAS ACTUALLY LOOKING AT
OHM Y GOD
If you don’t understand, just look up frozen tarzan
They belong to Disney (and one from dreamworks)
im a putlocker man at heart but sometimes you just gotta settle for gorillavid
And this scene right here? That 100% set up Natasha’s scene with Loki. Actually, all her scenes set up that moment where she allows her secrets, herself into the open. She knows that every single thing that comes out of her mouth is likely to be used against her, and she puts it OUT there, expecting it to be used against her. She gives people small (or large) bits of herself because she knows who and what she is. The bits she gives people don’t matter because the first cut is the deepest and all of it, all of it, has cut the nerve before.
Something terrifying about Natasha is that you can’t break her because every, single, tiny bit of herself has been broken. So even if something unbroken and good comes into her life, she knows it’s going to get destroyed. She KNOWS IT. And it might be a terrible way to look at the world, but you know what? It’s a damn practical one.
And I love this scene between Natasha and Bruce because they are so SIMILAR in this way. I don’t think Bruce has come to quite the understanding of self that Natasha has, but he’s on the way there. And while most of Natasha’s origin stories have this being done to her, and her having time to deal with that, Bruce did this to himself. And that’s a shit load of fault and frustration to deal with.
And I just… love the idea of them. Kind of in the same way that I love the idea of Scott and Rogue. Bruce and Natasha have had so much taken from them, that they’re now just giving it away. And I guess there’s some kind of really deep zen koan of being truly centered and wanting nothing about that.